Saturday is a busy day! especially when you are wigging!

Saturday we are going to go texture and paint the basement. I hadn't planned for it but that's what Lance said we are doing tomorrow. Then when it's done we can pack our stuff and move it over there before my mom moves out! We are trying to get out of our lease here in this house. It expires at the end of June anyway, but if i have to have surgery at the beginning of June, we better move asap. So we can get settled and survive the summer. I have come to the conclusion that, when I have this new biopsy done, and it doesn't come back as definitely cancer in the lymph node , I am not going to go ahead with the surgery. It has to say it's cancer! I'm not getting my neck dissected and finding out after it that it was just an odd lymph node. The risks aren't worth it.
I could loose shoulder mobility, and neck movement, not to mention the nerve that controls my face could be damaged and i could have a limp side of my mouth or whole side of my face. Not pretty! I was originally just worried about the mega scar, but now I'm wigging about the risk of nerve damage. and once it's ruined they can't fix it! So I am going to get my fine needle biopsy, and other tests before i do anything. and I might shop around some more for a new surgeon. I still have a referral to the Mayo Clinic for an ENT. It might be worth looking into. I must be my own advocate! I learned the hard way that Dr.s don't give a crap about my reality, and they can't be given my trust just because they are doctors. I must research and be alert! I am the one that has to live with this, Not them.

On a lighter note, My new camera came today so I'll take some pictures to share tomorrow night! Whoohoo!