No Biopsy today! Very PEEVED!

Lame, Lame,Lame! I went to the dr. , they piddle around, talk about results, feels my neck, discusses options.i really like this surgeon, he takes his time, is very cute, and almost flirty, which I LOVE! it's always nice to be flirted with. then he proceeds to tell me he can feel the lymph node, but it is small and right below it is the carotid artery, and above it some " bone"? So since i have an appointment on the 19th for an ultrasound guided FNA- fine needle aspiration-biopsy. We'll wait, then he adds that i am young , in a great age range and my risks are low! I tell him the generalization's bug me because if it was only my age deciding this, I wouldn't even be dealing with it! so i am peeved! pissed, ticked off! Mad! I cry at that point, and say they wasted my time coming in, that i came in for an F-ing biopsy, and he's saying i don't even have cancer, that I'm low risk but we'll go with what the biopsy says! well yeah no crap! and they gave you a medical degree? I am super pissed! I knew going in unless they did an ultrasound guided biopsy, they couldn't feel it enough to biopsy the freaking lymph node. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate this/ this cancer, won't kill me but the huge inconvenience might! I have a life, a very busy life with a larger than average family to be going to worthless appointments!
I actually said very loudly," I don't have time to be dicking around with this, and it has nothing to do with this cancer, I'm not worried about this cancer killing me, I just don't have time to dick around!! !" I am so lovely! then he tells me i'll be ok! everything will be OK! so yeah! crappy day! I really don;t worry about this cancer much, but i really hate to go to appointments when nothing gets accomplished or decided! So afterward...................
I bought this at TJ Maxx! and i am feeling all peeved again , i think i need to go to real deals. Retail therapy fixes everything.