Bunko group clarification! don't get offended please!

I seriously love "the wild group", and actually feel way more comfortable going to it! obviously i feel comfortable , because i always tell too much info. and i thought Lindsey's food was great, and i still need/want to go there again. and the prizes are great every month! and i love the fact i am actually official in the group and not just a sub. i guess i should clarify it as the group that wanted me and the one that didn't. which for a long time i felt totally uncomfortable at the group i just sub at. since they voted me down for another girl. and if i had any pride I'd be offended that they invited another new person in instead of me when they got another opening. and leave an empty slot now, while someone takes a year off. but i love to sub in this group, and if i can't really be a member i am more than happy to sub. pathetic too. so from now on it will be clarified "my favorite wild group" and "the group i sub for". and my "girls night out group". I have wanted to start my own group since i got voted down. but all the logistics and lack of right people kept deterring me from it. and now i do have my "wild group " where i am actually a member, and love it. so I'm sticking with it. hope i am still welcome after this retarded post. lack of judgment i guess posting late last night. sorry i suck today. and if you are in the group i sub for this is not a cry of sympathy to let me in the group, and please don't get offended either. i just love to go out and to have fun girls to hang out with!