OK well here is my Saturday confessional!

I got this post idea from Jenny . SO here goes-------------

I confess................I have a stinky poopy 3yr old sitting by me, and she needs changed , but nobody will bring me the diaper, so i let her sit in it. and when they do I will probably only change her, even though she really needs a bath.

I confess................I was out until 2:30 last night with a couple girls, and then came home to blog, and then when Lance asked what time I went to bed, I told him I couldn't remember.

I confess................I have not fed any children this morning, but i bought POP tarts last night at Walmart, and left them on the counter in plain sight , knowing they would eat them for breakfast and let me sleep longer.

I confess..................I have been having pregnant nightmares. and have happened by the baby girl stuff and wanted to buy it in advance for a baby girl i am not expecting, but i want to hoard it. knowing it won't be there when i have another girl , if i wait to buy it. and yes i want another baby girl. and yet every time I am pregnant with a girl, I want a boy. and when i got this boy I started wanting another girl! it is a vicious cycle!

I confess.................I sometimes can't handle all I have. so why would I want more? I haven't figured it out yet. but i keep wanting more. I originally planned on 12 kids. after 5 it became 8 on purpose and 10 on accident. and now i think if i had one more girl, i could be done. and yet I'm sure once i have the one more girl? I'd want another boy. Lance is always right! HE can totally see through me!

I confess................I have had A fruit snack (1) and a can of Dr. pepper for breakfast today!

I confess.................every Friday at movie fun, I feed my baby, 11 months old, popcorn and dr. pepper to keep him quiet during the movie! and sometimes red vines. if i am desperate!

I confess................I appear to have it together , if you see us out in public, when i plan on being seen, but I totally have the most un-presentable house . (ie. gross) unless I am having a party. and then I can get it together to be presentable. BUT my theory in this is, nobody sees my house but they see US out in public, so why put all the effort into the house? except this theory is kind of in the toilet since we moved into this house. it is a pit, but i care and am horrified if anyone stops by. but the rest of the time i ignore it. but it comes back to bite me every time someone stops by. another vicious cycle! But I have had people say! OH i can't wait to see your house IT must be fabulous , based solely on the fact that my kids are well put together. but i used to spend all my money on the kids and none on the house, not the same anymore but now we don't have the budget.

I confess..............I am obsessed with the budget or lack thereof!

I confess...............one time I had a dream about living within my means. revelation? perhaps.

I confess............... often I lack faith! i struggle with tithing and hate fasting. I don't believe in Mormon fairytale marriages either. and I believe alot of people idealize their lives thinking "I am faithful", and "I prayed about this", and then end up in unhappy marriages. while they are delusional about real faults they have noticed but think that if they are "Faithful enough" it will all work out in the end. maybe, but sometimes they go through undue suffering holding on to the fairytale! or the worse event that they think if they "try harder it will work". when it isn' t their fault it isn't working, but the other person makes them believe it is.

I confess............I just now changed the three year old and she waits here naked waiting for the bath she needs so i can type this and post!

what are your confessions for the day? can't wait to hear!