the beginning of an adventure? perhaps. maybe . i'm not sure. seriously?

today i went to my first weight watchers meeting. i am still undecided on it. i went, i paid my money, i have so far the beginnings of a commitment. i am unclear still which plan to follow.

the points? umm, sounds like some math is involved, and thinking about portion size and the limit is a big deal. i might have a hard time using all of my points, since i am so not thin that i get to have a bunch of points. except my beloved 44oz Dr. Pepper equals 12 points. i fully think it might be worth it. but the whole process , how much is a serving = points used , requires lots of thinking on my part. i am an absent minded eater. not an emotional eater i wouldn't say i was emotional about what or when i eat. maybe i am wrong . i am unsure on that too. and how do you figure one quarter of a peach ring? the pack says a serving size is the whole pack. or 7 rings= 210 calories per serving and i got a quarter of one ring. zero fat grams . i wouldn't count it , would you? the point for that would be negligible right?

the core plan? sounds interesting to me, but the requirements? i just might have issue with 2 tbs of oil daily , and the required milk or dairy. i don't eat that unless i eat pizza but with the core plan bread is out. unless i use my bonus points.

and with all new things i try, I want to go whole hog on buying the books. the cook books, the eating out guide, and other one. i am sold on the buying of the books. i didn't purchase them yet but i want to. i like the purchasing of the product more than the plan. because that is how i think, i need the "supplies" before i can make a proper start.

so until the 13th there is no enrollment fee to start weight watchers. just the weekly fee.

i went to the local mom and kids group. since i am not free to go alone often but today i happen to go alone. just because Hope puked this morning, and pierce was ready for a nap but didn't actually sleep. oh well i went alone. Lance was surprised when i got home and was talking about it. I didn't inform him of my intentions to join. so yeah i faced the fact i am fat and am not getting any thinner. and i have to make some effort to lose weight the thought of it is ugly , the effort will not be small but i have decided to make a change. I guess i will go with the points plan. this week. and see how it goes.

we'll see how long i go, and how well i do. I'm sure it isn't that hard to figure out. but i am so buying those books! maybe i need a prize to earn.

and can i say . i don't want to do this. i want to go the easy route, where my body makes the choices for me. maybe i need to make a dr. appointment too. I'll try this for a while and see how it goes if it works I'm sure i'll be more excited about it soon. today i'll read the book and tomorrow i will start.