what the Helll Wednesday-Tuesday sucked !

do you ever feel like the hugest failure as a mother? like you can't ever get them to school on time, dressed AND fed? and getting all the homework done? and when they tell you they have no homework all weekend and yet when it is bedtime Sunday night they suddenly remember they have a whole math packet due Monday morning from last week.

Well this was was Liberty Sunday night, somehow she can't manage to get her math packet done all week at school (maybe it is just the overwhelming totally intimidating task of doing it in packet form instead of page by page, it does that to me, and it isn't even my homework) but she can't manage. and Sunday she is suddenly freaking out about it. after bedtime mind you, and Lance is from the school of tough love, you don't get your crap done, you have to deal with the consequences OR get up early enough to get it done. so Monday she of course can't get it done, so she is freaking out , we took the other kids to school on time, she is virtually refusing to go, not wanting to face the teacher and not have her homework done, bawling and saying she doesn't feel well. finally she goes, late. but we made her go anyway. she comes home with most of it done. and finished the rest before she could do anything else. no TV ,no computer, no playing.she gets her book signed, homework put away in her bag etc.

Tuesday rolls around, we get a call before 9:00 with a message from her teacher. (i was giving the baby a bath and Lance was talking to his mom that had stopped by so we didn't answer the phone) . The message? her teacher was telling us Liberty left her backpack home and suspected she did because her math packet was due. and she didn't have it done the day before so she MUST have left it home to avoid having a consequence at school. UMMM, yeah in the bitchiest voice ever. no wonder Liberty was worried , i was scared myself and i am an adult. She did accidentally forget her bag, we were running late as usual, Lance was yelling for people to get in the car while i was doing her hair, i barely put a ponytail in , NO BOW and she ran out. so yeah it was on the couch after we got the message. I am not one to bail my kid out if they don't get their crap done, fine make them miss recess, lose points whatever , but when they really left home their bag, on accident. don't be a bitch about it. and assume they are trying to not turn in their completed homework. I am so not thrilled, so i called and left a message that she DID have her work done, that we had been late leaving and she rushed out the door and forgot her bag. but we'd drop it off at some point in the day. AND I said on my message ,"SHE has been having some issues with not wanting to come to school, afraid she'd be in trouble for not having her work done, and her teacher would yell at her. and maybe we needed to conference about it. "

well the teacher apparently felt threatened. she called back, and threatened that" we could be having an issue with truancy. she is late at least one day a week, she has a 10% absence rate already too. and her math grade is suffering. we do math first thing in the morning." (we aren't even 5 minutes late most of the time but they have to waste time going to the office for passes) well Liberty did have strep for 2 weeks and an ear infection and the flu already. and she has missed some days for Dr. appointments, and once or twice she faked sick because of school stressing her out. but i didn't just keep her home for fun, and when she goes to the nurse saying she doesn't feel good i make her stay all day anyway. but she complains alot about not feeling well. AND she did have Epstein Barr last year. she could be having another episode of that. and sadly i disregarded it last year. SO i need to get a dr.s note and say look people, she was really sick, i don't keep people home from school for no apparent reason. and you can kiss my A$$ about truancy. BUT i make her go! sometimes she is late because we have to threaten/coax her out the door. and keeping her home being sick she gets no privileges, and no fun. and she has to do everything I say like, clean stuff, get me diapers, and watch the baby while i nap or blog. but it is supposed to not be fun so she won't wanna stay home for no good reason. she tends to say she is sick and then be fine, and just fights with the little kids. which of course is not Kosher with me. if you are sick, you sleep and lay around not run around like a nut , fight and generally piss me off.
Oh and it isn't an issue with any of the other 3 kids at that school.

SO i think the teacher felt threatened and she is trying to cover her rear for my kid that struggles by placing blame. i was nice, but i did specify that i want her to get one page of her packet at a time, and see if that helps with not being as overwhelmed. I'm not thrilled.

oh and she brought up the fact that the office had sent home a letter stating the tardy issue. but i hadn't responded , so they weren't sure i got it. and yeah i got one, and didn't send it back but I happened to get it on the day i found out MY kids hadn't been tested for the crap i requested at the first of the year. yet(it was october). for speech delays and remedial reading. so they are all over the tardy issue but not on top of it for testing with the school specialists . I was peeved! and really which is more important? that they can read or that they are on time? HMMMMMM i think READING!and i meet with the speech specialist this week for Paxtons' speech. rad.

ok so this is where i am a failure. i have kids that are tardy because i don't get up early enough. they lose their shoes, or backpacks because my house is a wreck, so i am a failure because my house is messy and unorganized, and because of that they are late. i have a kid that struggles with her school work, so am i failure because of that too. i should work more with her one on one. but i bugs the crap out of me because she can't read for crap, and she doesn't even try to do her work on her own. i think she is totally ADD, not hyper but inattentive. and that is my fault, genetically i have to claim that. and how do i know the packet is overwhelming to her? because that was me. i hated school and never wanted to go because i couldn't get my work done, and i didn't do it. i was a fabulous reader though, that isn't my issue. but i think the problem is more her not paying attention long enough to actually do it. and once you miss the fear of being behind is overwhelming. AND i have issues now going to that school as the mom becuase that is where i went as a kid and felt like a failure then too. i feel bad for her, but i hate the thought of conferences and all of it. but i don't tell my kids that. and a teacher threatening me, freaks me out. i feel like a kid again. But seriously she better not mess with me or she will be having a problem on her hands, i will step up and be a big problem for her.

So i am a failure of a mother or i at least felt like one yesterday. and what makes me feel better shopping. so last night after i played guitar hero for awhile, i went to the store alone. and then met up with my friend. and have i decorated our house yet? nope. am a holiday failure too. i am RAD! really it sucks ---. I'll spare you the real phrase. but imagine it.

so this is totally just a bitchfest but sometimes that is what WTH Wednesday is about.

was i wrong? to call and tell the teacher she is having stress about school?

what would you do?

so anyone else care to admit failure?

just a little ?

to make me feel better?

I did take her bag over, and the teacher go her packet. she said so when she called. (i actually made Lance take it. i wasn't loving the idea of going to the school becuase of irrational childhood fears of failure brought on by having my children attend the same school i did growing up, but I'm, not switching schools becuase of it.)