do i have a sign on my forehead that says flirt with me?

today! was the day i went for my neck ultra sound. i left a little late. and hit a ton of traffic. the freeway interchange was backed up past the on ramp for a while . crazy! get on, and the freeway was pretty clear. get going , and part of it is stop and go. then it stops completely. fabulous! so i merge over to go around this line that is totally stopped and 5 cars were stopped in the middle of the far left lane! HELLO! pull off the F- ing freeway! yeah a little fender bender, glad i wasn't involved.

but i get there just in time. sign in. blah blah blah. go back to the room.blood pressure extra high! NICE, she wondered if i was having some stress? um yeah bad bad traffic, running late AND hmm let see i am here for a follow up ultrasound FOR MY CANCER. i read a magazine and wait . i am assuming for the Dr. ?

in comes an ultrasound tech? yeah. nice guy. but at one point totally starts flirting with me! hello? i like a little casual flirting as much as the next person, but really? you are checking for more cancer, just do your job. we are chatting, he asked me about my history. blah blah blah. oh you're on hormone replacement? what is that like? FOR REAL?! just pretend you know all about it guy! make me think you are knowledgeable. and you know what the hell you are looking for. please!
and how is it if you are off your meds? well it sucks a$$ to tell you the truth. not my fave thing. but i don't say that . just list the horrible symptoms that come if i am not on my medication. fabulous! just take my word if you aren't clear on it.

so he starts doing the ultrasound where my thyroid used to be,"the thyroid bed" ( feel the small butterfly shaped gland on the front of your neck below the Adams apple , go ahead i'll wait. ). he is thinking it looks great. can't see anything. all the while only getting the front of my neck, in the past i have had whole neck ultra sounds including lymph node mapping. so i of course i am far past the basic thyroid bed ultrasound. they normally do below each ear. down to my collar bone up under my chin, the whole neck. so he is asking about past ultrasounds, and i said where some odd ones are. and then i said i have been having pain on one side that is obviously a lymph node. so he measured it. so while he was telling me there was nothing i proved him wrong, be said well it was so big it just looked like muscle tissue. FOR REAL! so yeah then he went back to the right side. i told him about another one, and yeah HUGE long giant one. in the meantime the guy got a page on his phone, mentions it is the wife,and that she calls and he jumps, then asks if i am married? YES I AM. Do you have any babies? Um yeah 6. next thing he says? so you don't have a TV? i giggled and said yeah we finally got cable. I'm chuckling about it , but really who asks that?


why would he feel so free to flirt with me? and then ask semi rude questions? what is it about me that my Dr.s all flirt with me? is it me? is it how i dress? and really not a flirty outfit. jeans. crocs, and a silky green top(only because my fave black clothes are still wet in the washer) . so not like i was flashing cleavage, or winking. which i have been known to do but the Dr's office isn't a place i generally do. and isn't one of those places i expect to be hit on. and i have to admit i don't mind the flirting. and the comment about the TV wasn't a new one or offensive, and all if it kind of put me at ease. BUT REALLY? what if i wasn't laid back or a natural flirt? that guy could be fired for that kind of talk.

anyway so i have a follow up on the ultrasound report. on THURSDAY with the real Dr. not a tech.
and we'll go over the results. the problem i have is, i always doubt the level of care i get. like a flirty tech, not seeing anything until i point out what i know is there. and the problem is there is still stuff there. i will feel better about all of it after i have the thyroid whole body scan.

do i need to explain what a Whole body scan is?

short answer. I prep for the test. go on a two week low iodine diet(starving any thyroid cells in my body of iodine makes the test work better). i swallow a pill of radioactive iodine(I-131). any thyroid material will absorb all the radioactive iodine and "light up". the stuff that lights up anywhere is technically cancer. since i should have no thyroid cells anywhere anymore. anything that lights up will be surgically removed. IF nothing lights up. i have a clean scan. that is the peace of mind i'm looking for. so the scan is a big deal. there is a point that i could get a false negative scan but not a false positive. it shouldn't light up anywhere.

k so not mega stressed .

for clarification sake. this is the shirt
but really all the guy could see was fat lady laying on a table reading a magazine.