A glimmer of Recognition
She spotted him as she exited the refrigerated vegetable room at costco.
he was instantly recognized as that guy that she had a fleeting crush on back in the day. it lasted all of 72 hours until she fell head over heels in love with some other unsuspecting male.
Today as she walked in the other direction, she had these flashes of memories about this now grown man.
She assumes back then he never even knew who she was. He was Dreamy and a senior while she was a lowly sophomore in highschool. He went to college out of state while she worked the young adult scene in town. when she ran into him on his visits from school back then she may have fleetingly entertained the fantasy of hunting down his phone number and asking him out. She was brazen and bold but failed in her lame attempt to track him down. He didn't know who she was anyway.
Today He looked the same, with less hair but same coloring and build,she thought he looked semi nerdy in his white shirt and dress pants. he was obviously a white collar professional now.
As she walked away quickly to finish her shopping, She was glad he would have no clue who she was.
She made it up to the front of the store to the registers, not noticing who was around her. she began unloading her cart placing her items on the nearest conveyor belt with no line. across the lane someone looked at her then took a double take.
It was him again.
Then He looked at her with that glint in his eye, the glimmer of recognition and a moments pause that said ," now where do i know her from?"
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yeah so today. i ran into this guy, one of the hundreds I'd crushed on in my life. i knew instantly who he was. if i would have been on the phone or with a friend i would have grabbed them and said "OH MY GOSH! it's ... i had the hugest crush on him back in the day!"
instead i was by myself and assumed there would be no way, he knew who I was. at least i hoped he wouldn't since I didn't assume that he knew me back then.
you know how it is. you are running errands not expecting to run into anyone. inside the store you have to take off the sunglasses that camouflage the fact you didn't bother with make-up. your hair is done, your outfit is OK but in the 13 years since you'd seen the guy you've had a herd of kids and gained how much weight and lost how much muscle tone? really it's best for everyone if he doesn't know who you are, if he ever did know you, you would HOPE and PRAY he wouldn't recognize you now. or is that just me?
anyway. i could tell he thought he knew me from somewhere, i knew his name. but what am i gonna say? "hey (real name inserted here) , how are you? you don't know who the heck i am, but i had a crazy crush on you back when i was... cuter/skinnier/younger!"
seriously it wasn't happening.
of course after he checked out moments before me. at the register next to mine, (i really didn't even see him until it was too late) I'm just glad i wasn't buying tampons and condoms or something since he checked out the items i was buying, of course he hit the concession stand since it was lunch time.
GREAT! there goes my churro fix! i was not going to stand in line behind him for 10 minutes awkwardly, with him wondering who i was and where he knew me from , while i was thinking OH MY GOSH, don't recognize me, DON'T RECOGNIZE ME. you never even knew me.
seriously i really don't think he knew my name ever. of course that didn't stop me back then from planning our wedding and happily ever after.
on my way home i hit the fish and chips place, where yet another guy i crushed on happens to work. of course, i don't assume he remembers 17 year old me, casually hinting that i wanted him to ask me out and him telling me no, because i was jail bait.
um yeah, maybe it's best if people don't remember me.
on the drive home as i thought about posting since it's been awhile, and remembered these guys i thought, this is the downside of living in the town you grew up in, went to school in, and dated in.
yeah. running into people is inevitable. my only hope is that they don't remember who i was. or i at least look good if they do.
anyway, i totally googled him when i got home, we have 3 friends in common on FB,
he appears to be happily married with 4 kids and is now a lawyer. interesting huh?
~So has that ever happened to you?
~have you ever run into someone you secretly crushed on?
~what do ya do if you run into someone you knew of, but they didn't have reason to know you?
~have you ever wanted to confess later to someone 'hey i had a major crush on you back in the day!'
© 2009 crazymamaof6
7 comments:
you could totally write some awesome trashy type novels!
yes, yes, act like i'm looking at something or walk away busy, Heck no! i get anxious even thinking about running into someone i knew let alone crushed on. not much confidence right now =(
I have to say, that is one perk to living in another state than the one I grew up in!!! I do run into people though when I go back home to visit and I use to run into people when I lived in Utah. I usually don't say anything but the other person does, it's usually "hey, Whipple (maiden name) how have you been, I see your family up at the hospital, your Mom was my wifes nurse when she had our baby" yep that's usually how it goes and I am terrible with names, even the boys that I was MADLY in love with so I just smile and say "yep my Mom's a nurse" clever huh?!
I always wanted to run into old flames after high school, when I had my sports car and my cute skinny aerobics instructor body, but never did. Now, there's no chance since I live down here. Even when I go visit UT, I never run into anyone. My friend on the other hand, runs into everyone. She's constantly emailing me about the people she sees or that are in her ward now or whatever.
I think its great when you see them, but they don't see you that is how I like it but of course that NEVER happens, its always when I look my worst and have crabby kids with me JOY!
I absolutely hate running into an old crush or people from back in the day. Before kids, before the squishy tummy and mommy funk. BUT that is why I loved AZ....didn't know a sole.... no pressure to look good. Sad you didn't get your churro fix.
Living in a relatively small city, I run into guys I crushed on all the time! Some are even my neighbors.
And since I was one of those late bloomers, I have to admit I kinda dig the double take from these guys. You know those teen movies where a girl is a geek with glasses and braces but then she get contacts, the braces come off and she learns how to do her hair and makeup? That would be the story of my early teenage years. But then I developed a thing for bad boys and I never looked twice at those preppy guys again.
And yes, I have totally confessed a crush, more than once!
This is exactly why I put make up on even if I am going to Wal Mart at midnight....
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