i have analyzed my feelings. here they are.

by the " it feels so high school" i mean, I feel all jealous and inadequate like i did in high school. and totally insecure about what people think. and I'm not thin enough or rich enough or cute enough. and my house isn't clean enough or fabulous enough. and why do i totally fit in with the mesa high girls from high school and not all the Mt. view girls? and do these people like me less once they have met me in person? maybe i am only fabulous on here and i suck in real life?

the comments thing i know feels weird for a day or two but it will be a relief for you , i know it. Lance was shocked and appalled. about my taking the comments off. i don't know why i took them off. i like the comments. but now i am in control, of my happiness, it isn't based on my comments, the number of them, who they are from, i was getting all competitive. and really why? what does it matter?

so here i am . in this place. and i think instead of making this blog private. i am going to keep this one how it is, and have a private one for my craZy talk. or really the good stuff like the venting and the drama ( and naming names too) . and this one will be fluff! it will be exclusive for only the coolest people, so if you want in, email me at crazymamaof6@gmail.com. it won't be just bitching and moaning either. but the fabulous my kids make me crazy, nude adventure tales. ok feeling good about this good time. another blog all my own! yes. this will solve many problems. Fabulous!