What the hell wednesday?

for real - on Sunday after noon i was taking my standard nap. apparently someone had come to the door, the kids opened it. and IT was "an old man he said to give it (big gift bag) to you and merry christmas" . the kids are tearing through the bag ripping out the tissue paper. it was two wooden nutcrackers one that plays a drum and is mechanical and one plain one. i look out the window, and i see my dad getting in his truck. the kicker. MY kids don't even know who their grandpa is. i said, "oh it is Grandpa Jones "and i went downstairs, to catch him before he drove away. he asks how my cancer crap is. and we are chatting for a minute. he's in his car , with his "partner" . I'm inside my gate. Joy came outside and said who's that? that is my Dad grandpa Jones. she has never met him. he has never made an effort to meet any of my last 3 kids. He lives not even 2 miles away from me. But he is Gay , living a Gay lifestyle and refuses to go anywhere with out Jerry "his husband" they had "a Ceremony" . even the older kids don't know him because we don't see him because he can't not flaunt it. and push the gayness on you. or come around without his partner.

oh and the other Gay news? two things

1st- my best friend from High school ran into my dad at a restaurant in town recently , he wasn't going to say anything to her but felt free to stare enough that her husband noticed and brought it to her attention. So she got up and went to say Hi, he introduced Jerry. and get this they were wearing matching sweat suits! fag! really it is one thing to be gay and entirely another to flaunt it around town. I was horrified when her mom came visiting teaching today and told me. horrified to have to claim him as my father. and that people know we are related.

2nd- Dad is hosting a christmas breakfast Buffet on christmas day. i am calling it the "Gay buffet." we won't be going. since it is at the same time as my mom's brunch. and i wouldn't be taking my kids anyway. since i don't want them to think being Gay is alright.

and seriously i don't have an issue with Gay people just my dad that apparently was Gay always and yet led my mom to believe that it was her fault he wasn't attracted to her because of her weight. that and he chooses to flaunt it in front of the families that spend time with him, and i have issues with that.

seriously WTH?
i'm not sad he doesn't know my kids and I'm not sad that they don't know him , I'm just saying it is sad that he doesn't care if he knows them. he is the one missing out. and the deal is if he wanted to get to know them or meet them he would have to do it alone , no Jerry. and he won't do it. it isn't worth it to him. well it is his loss then . Because my kids are fabulous and smart and funny and stylish , and cute. and he will never know them because of the choices he has made and continues to make.