one of those days.

so it's been one of those days where your expectations are higher than normal and yet realistic. and you STILL come away disappointed.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO US. yeah 11 years ago, on a Saturday, that was a full moon. we got married, in what is now OUR backyard. i had Fuchsia gerbera Daisies, and yellow roses for my bouquet, family members wore black, and the guys all had matching black flowered ties that my mom made to match. I wore white satin, with silk ribbon embroidery and pearls that my mom sewed for me, i wore a borrowed veil from my fave sister-in-law. we were married under the peach trees that are now gone. Lance walked me down the aisle . (since i pretty much hated my dad) we were married by our singles ward bishop, Bishop Kempton, in front of our families. and some friends, looking back though, I have no idea why I didn't invite more of my friends to the ceremony. only a couple. the reception immediately followed with a receiving line of just me and Lance.

Lance's brother Matt did our wedding pictures. I never put them in an album, and tonight as I was looking for them I realized I have absolutely no idea where they are, or when the last time I saw them was.

i am beginning to panic, and wonder if they were in teh boxes of "treasures" that got ruined last fall . ( all my stuff that i stored, and moved back and forth and all over, carefully , got stupidly put on the side of the house to be ruined and rained on last fall. i'm not exactly sure what was lost, yearbooks, letters, pictures. since i can't find the wedding pictures i'm afraid they were in there too. and the office is a wreck with remodel stuff ,and ceiling fans in the way, that i can't dig, and make sure they are in fact safe, so i fear the worst). so no wedding picutres to post. but i did have a great time looking through the pictures i could find, loads of the first 3 kids, and you wouldn't know we had the other 3 looking at the stacks. welcome to the digital age. but i digress ,what i'm saying is there are none to post. i'm fairly sick over it. but it's par for the course today.

Lance was on a camporee with 11 year old scouts. he got home or i should say i saw him around 3:30 today.

today we had a full day-
this morning Paxton had basketball at 8:00.
eyebrow wax with Jaime at 9:15 ( Thanks Jamie)
CVS for benedryl
home to go potty and grab a clean shirt for Pierce(cookie slime)
haircuts for the boys at sportsclips until 11:30
i had a lunch date with my boys at Applebee's from 12-1 including dessert first.
we ran to target until 2:15 and ran into Maria(my sister, and i gave her her movie tickets)
home to go potty for 5 minutes
basketball for Peyton game at 3-grandma Joann brought the girls there and watched the game too. RAGAMUFFINS, i was so embarrassed to claim them. Lance showed up for the tail end of this game.
game at 4. joann left
drop by fave brothers house to drop off movie fun tickets, and pick up lance's bag he forgot.
Drop off Lance @ super cuts for lance's haircut. (family pictures tomorrow,nothing like the last minute to get hair cuts)
get golden spoon frozen yougurt for me and the kids while we wait.
come home right about the time the sitter is on her way. and our house is a freaking pit. there is no way we could get the basement babysitter ready, and everyone is exhausted. and cranky!
so we canceled, going out wasn't worth the stress, when we are so tired it wouldn't even be fun.
i laid down before i had a breakdown.
got up when my mom came to get the girls.
looked for pictures, and looked through all that i could find.
and here we are. long day. long couple of days. I'm about to lose it. totally on the verge of total breakdown. so i'm going to bed.