Foto Friday-somebody is sitting in my chair... and a little blitching.
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and today is one of those days.
we had plans for tonight, lined up sitters(my mom, his mom), and now it's been canceled. and rescheduled. my feelings on this are jumbled. before it was canceled i was irritable about going and had been dreading it all week, since we never have a sitter, i felt like we were wasting a night out to hang with Lance's siblings (i always have fun once i get there, it's the thoughts of dread before that i don't love) and we hadn't even gone out for our f-ing anniversary, but we have a sitter for this? but i had resigned myself to go and have fun.
and then it got canceled due to illness.
so now, I'm irritated that WE HAVE A FREAKING SITTER for tonight, i should be happy and go out, but now i hate to waste a sitter tonight, since now we'll need to get one whenever the rescheduled family game night happens. plus my poor mom isn't doing so hot. she is in pretty much constant pain with the arthritis in her hip (she's getting it replaced this month , it's that bad) but was willing to help out. and i totally DON'T feel right having her babysit if we don't REALLY have to go out. GUILT.
THEN, they were thinking next week looks good. YOU ARE KIDDING ME RIGHT? going out doesn't just happen for us, getting a sitter isn't all that easy, we don't have built in sitters yet, everyone else in his family does. so i find myself irritated both ways. Lance is thinking I'm never happy. and that is probably true. but the inconveniencing and causing discomfort for my mom isn't on the top of my list of things i like to do.
so we probably won't be going out. and like i said now the dread is lasting another week to go hang out with his siblings. i should be better about it. BUT I'm just not there yet. especially when we don't go out on a regular basis. and we missed going out on what should be a guaranteed date.
for the anniversary, but now i'm remembering we didn't go out on valentines day, and we probably won't be going out on my birthday. maybe I'm 100% selfish for thinking of this stuff and whining about it but ya know, it's not looking like a good year for dating my husband.
and i'd really like to.
it leaves me wanting to go spend money, and WE DON'T HAVE ANY MONEY! DAMN IT!
I've mentioned I'm an emotional shopper haven't I.
retail therapy does wonders for me. but lack of funds makes it not an option.
tomorrow's plans? BASKETBALL. and maybe more work on the house. it's a double edged sword for sure, on one side the house is crazy and Lance isn't available to help me at all, plus uncle tony is here watching to see what i do or don't do . and on the other side, it's taking forever if they aren't working on it. my goal is to have it all done by my BIRTHDAY MAY 25th. and i have bunko here June 3rd. ONE MONTH to get ready. finished remodeling and decorate again. OY!
heads up: super fun giveaway coming MONDAY! yup another contest/giveaway. i know you are stoked.
we had plans for tonight, lined up sitters(my mom, his mom), and now it's been canceled. and rescheduled. my feelings on this are jumbled. before it was canceled i was irritable about going and had been dreading it all week, since we never have a sitter, i felt like we were wasting a night out to hang with Lance's siblings (i always have fun once i get there, it's the thoughts of dread before that i don't love) and we hadn't even gone out for our f-ing anniversary, but we have a sitter for this? but i had resigned myself to go and have fun.
and then it got canceled due to illness.
so now, I'm irritated that WE HAVE A FREAKING SITTER for tonight, i should be happy and go out, but now i hate to waste a sitter tonight, since now we'll need to get one whenever the rescheduled family game night happens. plus my poor mom isn't doing so hot. she is in pretty much constant pain with the arthritis in her hip (she's getting it replaced this month , it's that bad) but was willing to help out. and i totally DON'T feel right having her babysit if we don't REALLY have to go out. GUILT.
THEN, they were thinking next week looks good. YOU ARE KIDDING ME RIGHT? going out doesn't just happen for us, getting a sitter isn't all that easy, we don't have built in sitters yet, everyone else in his family does. so i find myself irritated both ways. Lance is thinking I'm never happy. and that is probably true. but the inconveniencing and causing discomfort for my mom isn't on the top of my list of things i like to do.
so we probably won't be going out. and like i said now the dread is lasting another week to go hang out with his siblings. i should be better about it. BUT I'm just not there yet. especially when we don't go out on a regular basis. and we missed going out on what should be a guaranteed date.
for the anniversary, but now i'm remembering we didn't go out on valentines day, and we probably won't be going out on my birthday. maybe I'm 100% selfish for thinking of this stuff and whining about it but ya know, it's not looking like a good year for dating my husband.
and i'd really like to.
it leaves me wanting to go spend money, and WE DON'T HAVE ANY MONEY! DAMN IT!
I've mentioned I'm an emotional shopper haven't I.
retail therapy does wonders for me. but lack of funds makes it not an option.
tomorrow's plans? BASKETBALL. and maybe more work on the house. it's a double edged sword for sure, on one side the house is crazy and Lance isn't available to help me at all, plus uncle tony is here watching to see what i do or don't do . and on the other side, it's taking forever if they aren't working on it. my goal is to have it all done by my BIRTHDAY MAY 25th. and i have bunko here June 3rd. ONE MONTH to get ready. finished remodeling and decorate again. OY!
heads up: super fun giveaway coming MONDAY! yup another contest/giveaway. i know you are stoked.
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Go out and enjoy yourself! Maybe you will get lucky! wink wink Amazing what that will do for the stress levels!
♡ We're having "a day" today too! I even banished Lane to his room for 45 minutes and Eliza has been in the corner twice!!! Lovely day and I'm feeling you! Joe & I never go out EVER EVER EVER unless we take the kids with us!
We hardly ever go out too. I think we've gone out twice this year, maybe one more time that I'm not remembering. Anyway, I totally understand feeling like a wasted babysitter. I don't like asking family to babysit, so we've had to pay for our YW sitters. It takes time & stress to get a babysitter. Maybe you & Lance should still go out for a little while because even the prophet says we need "date nights" each week or month. (esp before your mom has hip surgery)
I remember the whole babysitter drama. It's hard.
I'd go out when you can even if it is in the middle of the day.
(((HUGS))
BUMMER! That's crazy!! I'm calling you right now...
we'll chat.
I think we are a lot alike. I never have a babysitter and never go on dates due to my guilt. It is nice your mom is so cool.
Maybe you can put the younger ones to bed, go a little later, and just have alone time getting dessert.
Until your oldest can babysit, do what you can. (I got 5 more years!)
Good luck! Hope you have fun and get a free night.
Everyone goes through the babysitting thing. Just a part of having kids. When I worked full time and my MIL watched my boys, I never felt like I could have her watch them on the weekend for us to have a night out. But I hated hiring one, too. I don't blame you for not wanting to waste one on just going out with the sibs. Luvpilot and I probably only go out a couple times a year without any kids, if that makes you feel any better. {I know, it doesn't.) Hope you get a real date with Lance real soon.
I am with you on the whole no built in babysitter!! I can not wait!! When I have a chance to get out though it better be good:)! If I have gone through all the trouble to get a babysitter which sometimes consists of a background check by CPS I better be in for a grand time. I feel guilty too. My parents take the hit for us all the time. I try not to abuse their generosity
Maybe there is a hormone cloud passing over everyone?? Weird day.
A birthday AND a giveaway?
SUPER EXCITING!!!
yea my husband an i have not been out on a date in a while either. we really have no big excuses except for money. i tend to spend all the "extra" on cute clothes and shoes for Jordan. i need to stop that! but like you retail therapy does wonders for me too!
Days like this really make me want to throw a tantrum...like lay down on the floor and kick and scream, just like my kids! Hope you weekend is okay!
So sorry about the cancelled plans when you had a sitter! I hate that & I totally understand the "wasted" sitter feelings! Sorry!!
i get the exact same dread about the family get togethers! wow.
i also have a good time once I'm there, and yeah--who in the world is going to waste a babysitter on hanging out with family????
where's the date? I so feel your pain--right down to the no money to ease it with.
((sigh)) thank god for candy! i so wish I drank right about now!
Go out and enjoy yourself. I ALWAYS dread the in-law visits. BTW Happy Anniversary on the 19th ( ours is the same day:) . Hope you have a SUPER FUN weekend.
The whole going out thing is so stressful for me. If I ever do get a babysitter it seems like something bad happens while I'm gone and it's so much work just to make sure everything is in order for me to leave. So, we don't go out very often either. I can't wait for the next contest.
Sweet of you to not use your mom...I bet she really does appreciate it! So hard though....I know when we go out it is usually planned for a month....babysitters are difficult for us because we ONLY trust a few people! We are taking a ballroom dance class right now and I have to have my mom watch the boys because I don't trust anyone else to do it! Feeling your pain girl! And no out on Anniversary or Birthday....GIRL you are getting ripped-off! I want to come and babysit for you! Good luck with your Saturday! I still have boxes in my living room from LAST Saturday that we attempted to go through for our garage sale...still sitting here making a mess....I am not a huge fan of Saturdays...except Micah is home and that much I LOVE!
Cancelled plans suck...hopefully, it'll make the next night out that much better. You're birthday is the day after mine-how exciting!
Another give-away, too cool! Enjoy the rest of your weekend-
Oh, your life will be so different when your girls get just a little older! Having a built in babysitter is the best. No more worrying about all the little things like the house not being clean enough for a babysitter (always my #1 concern). Your kids already know and they don't care. Of course when they get that old, life gets more complicated in other ways.....
I hardly ever go ut because of the guilt too. Not that I feel bad for leaving my kids. They love it but always because I hate dumping them on someone else because I know they are hard work. We use to put the kids to bed and spend time watching movies together and now I work nights. At home and he could totally come in and watch a movie with me but won't because he hates to have to pause it when I get a phone call. UGH whatever. Rude huh? Yeah miss dating him and it makes us both intense. We need time to just talk and reconnect. Understand.
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