just so you know... i prefer bliss.

because I prefer ignorance.

it's true. ignorance is bliss in some things.

for me? it's current events. politics, and the news. news of terror, and destruction, and abuse. news about crimes, and economic stimulus packages being mishandled, or speculated about.

I avoid the news, current events, and political radio shows FOR A REASON.

if i have no clue about the state of the economy other than we are cruising our overdraft, i can't stress about it. (because just worrying about my current lack of funds is more than enough to send me to bed for a week in a depressed stupor)

If i have no Idea about the unemployment rate, i have no worries until we lose our job. (or someone we care about does ,cuz i get that, and that SUCKS)

If someone was voted into office and they have radical ideas for change, and everyone else is in fear of whatever the media tells them?

I can be glad i have no idea. because I can't do anything about it, except for pray that it's not as bad/or good as the media makes it sound (depending on who you are and what it is they are riled about) and i will just have to wait and see what really happens.

i have anxiety.

i stress over little things. little inconsequential things that i can control and things that are already more than i can bear to deal with. i know my limits. and I've usually surpassed them on any given day already.

what kind of nervous wreck do you think i would be?

IF i read the paper, or listened to news talk radio. or Political propaganda. or the state of the world economy, or the the end of the world as we know it.

I'd be a NERVOUS WRECK.

a RAVING LUNATIC.

an IDIOT COWERING IN FEAR OVER THINGS I CAN'T CONTROL!

I'd be rocking in my chair, wetting myself and babbling never to leave my house again.

or laying in bed sleeping away my troubles never wanting to leave my small haven away from the reality that bears down upon me. looming just out of my reach beyond my control.

i just don't need that kind of stress.

really sometimes ignorance is bliss, I appreciate being left in the dark.

and why can't everything be about lollipops and rainbows(not gay rainbows, just happy colorful ones)? and dancing unicorns and fairies?

why can't it always be about discount sales, and shopping? and things that sparkle?

simple things that make people happy?

Is that too much to ask for? to just be left in the dark?

Hey, have a good day.

i think i need a chill pill. and a beverage(thank goodness for a husband who brought me one not even knowing i was in desperate need). and maybe a hot shower while i read and soak away my stresses. ( real or imagined.)

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it's a busy week.

peyton's 2nd root canal- only $198 today.

Pierce has surgery for his tubes and adenoids on Thursday. and i just found out my portion of the facility fee? only $402.40 (can't forget the forty freaking cents.) not to mention the dr. fee.

i also need to get on our scheduling of other stuff i've been putting off. like taking some kids to the optometrist. and everyone to the dentist.(including me) i bet the dentists office can't wait to spend a half hour scheduling my family with just me on the phone.

AWESOME.

SWEET!

UGH!