Randoms and ranting
it's time once again for a random assortment of my thoughts.
and just maybe my thankful item o' the day will be posted at the bottom .
Christmas- I'm conflicted. alternately giddy and terrified at the same time, black friday ads are starting to roll in. While it's my FAVORITE DAY OF THE WHOLE FREAKIN' YEAR the thought of purchasing more crap (stuff) that will come find a place in my home is less than delightful. while the kids haven't begun asking for stuff yet, but it all looks like CRAP, plus there are two birthday's before christmas.
ugh. bah humbug. i'm starting early this year.
tardies. i got an email saying joy is tardy too often, and i instantly felt like a failure. GREAT. while we started out this year strong i've fallen into my old ways of not getting up early enough. and yet still insist they have their hair done daily. it makes for a vicious cycle. just one of many.
plus Joy's behavior at dance has gotten her kicked out (she was bullying the one kid that wasn't already a friend or relative, going as far as punching him more than once) . RAD. of course i can't control what she does when she's not with me. but once again i feel a failure. sigh.
Scouts and scouting. failure. we are the crappiest scouting parents ever. EVER! and yet while i personally don't give a freaking rats tush, my kids are feeling it. and i feel guilt every time a leader calls or emails. BAH! I hate that. and the thought of wasting all day at scout o rama is less than appealing.
Sonic. they gave me the wrong order today. ME a REGULAR! WHAT? how dare they mix my order up?
Today i got all the way home, offered the kids Corndogs for lunch and THEN opened the bag, and Low and behold , it wasn't my order and there WERE NO CORN DOGS!
ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME? i am a regular. WTH ? BAH!
so i had to dress the diaper wearer and drive back down the hill to my sonic. and demand my order, and they tried to hand me the one they didn't give to me in the first place? Are you shizzzing me?
that was um 15 minutes ago. i want a fresh order thankyouverymuch! irritated. they acted like that was alot to ask.
um we would have finished this food 10 minutes ago if you would have given me the right order, AND i had to drive all the way back. there is nothing worse than stale fries and a cold hamburger. ok so there might be, but i paid for fresh food. not old food. GIVE ME WHAT I WANT ! I'M A REGULAR DANG IT! it's things like that that make me want to boycott a place.
sheesh.
i think i'm overwhelmed. with everyday life.
lately opening my email has become overwhelming. what bad news awaits me today? and where are all my delightful comments to counteract the less than fabulous abundance??
yeah well. have a happy Wednesday.
on the agenda for the rest of my day?
scouts
achievement days
scouts
dance
dinner
baths
bed
Today i am thankful for LONG hot soaky showers.
How are you feeling lately? haven't heard much from ya?
any thoughts on christmas?
how do you feel about scouting?
and what makes you feel like a failure as a mother?
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13 comments:
i haven't commented lately. i read and dash. i am usually supposed to be doing something else. which has always been the case but now it is just more pertinent stuff. lots of crapolla going on, not fun.
i say it every year but i want to have a handmade Christmas this year or at least a scaled down one. i try but then at the last minute someone decides the gifts aren't good enough and we go into further debt just to upgrade. so not looking forward to that! i don't feel anything about scouting, lol. if i had boys i would be the worst scout mom. i don't know why but when my kids are called out on doing something wrong i feel like a failure. also when people step into my house ( i totally try to stop them at the door) i feel like a huge failure.
BooYa, thought I would leave a comment.
I hate and despise scouting with all of my heart and soul! You couldn't possibly be the worst scouting parent because I know that I am! I hate so much sewing on the dang patches that I could scream! I tried to hot glue them out of desperation once, and then the best one was when i stapled them and they all fell off, I would love to send my child on the outing's but I can not get his uniform or a foil dinner together!
Duty to who?
Christmas? What the Hell man! I would like to enjoy the holiday and the feeling that comes with it, but how can that happen when I am shopping shopping shopping like a crazy mad woman to try and make that perfect magical Christmas for my family! It really does suck! I want to enjoy it too, but who can with the stress of it all! Man, I bow down to my mother's feet who bought for 9 kids every year, and made it look effortless!
Failure as a mother? Not me! oh yeah that's right I almost forgot, my son knocked me out this week, and my other son told me how much he hates me, maybe I will rethink that one!
Hope your day goes better, I think once the cool air quits tricking us and stays around for more then an hour then it will feel much less overwhelming, at least that's my philosophy!
Hey, New Moon is almost here does that thought cheer you up?!!
I am busy trying to do all the book stuff the publisher is requesting of me. It seems overwhelming.
But I love HOT soaky showers too.
I am okay with the cubscouts, it's the older scout thing that makes me feel like a failure. Because my son doesn't want to go, and doesn't go very often, so I think that makes me look bad. Doesn't matter that I'm basically a single mom most of the time, and trying to do it all, I still feel like the leaders look at me bad. But I can't help it if he doesn't like it and doesn't want to go camping with them, or play basketball with them.
I would've been pissed about the Sonic order too. Good on you for making them remake it.
Hey, Lookin' forward to Black Friday too! FYI, you'll be happy to know that we are not giving you guys a boat load of crap for your christmas present!!! I already have it planned out and it is perfect for you :) one less worry for you, maybe ;)
I am a scout leader and I have to say sometimes I am just not feeling it, it's hard for me to keep up with my family and Scouts, it's even harder when both me and my husband (he's the Cub Master) both have things we are suppose to attend but no money to pay a sitter!!I feel like a failure when I have to cancel at the last minute or I just plain forget to plan something.
As far as feeling like a failure as a mother, there are to many things, and it would take me forever to list them. But I do have those uplifting moments that show me that I haven't failed them completely.
I don't care to much for Christmas shopping, even though it's my favorite time of yr. This yr we are planning to go to my parents so we are saving every penny for the trip. We decided to make gifts this year.
Sorry I haven't commented lately, I was with out the internet for a couple of weeks. Hang in there though things will start looking up.
Im not feeling christmas yet...its to freakin hot outside, although I do some some clouds rolling in!
This christmas I won't be buying as much and probably making more handmade stuff for other people, baking, painting etc.
Don't have any scouts in the house yet
and the failure thing happens to me quite often. I would love to volunteer in my daughters class but with 2 toddlers at home with me 24/7 I just can't. She asks why I don't come to school and eat lunch with her...well its the 2 year olds nap time.
Just got to suck it up those are little things at the big things we rock right?!
You know, there are just too many things to do. I play the failure card very well. I look back at my mothering adventures and I find a lot of holes and I can drum up many regrets. My daughter's 20 and my boy will be 19 in May and he is not even close to being an Eagle scout. But guess what? I've decided that if it's not a requirement to get into heaven, I'm not gonna worry about it.
Once-in-awhile I hear one of my neighbors or friends tell me that my kid is great or that they were polite or hard-working and I figure if my kids can act pretty normal in public, it's all good. I love Christmas but I've learned to simplify. Last year the biggest present each of our kids got was a list of all the money we had spent on them in the past year. Kids are even more expensive when they're older! We just do the best we can. In the end, I think it's more important to concentrate on your relationship with your kids/husband/friends etc. than on all the things that need to be done.
I am one that waits until December before I let my mind wonder to Christmas.
I am a failure when I realize my kids look scared when I am screaming.
I am one that waits until December before I let my mind wonder to Christmas.
I am a failure when I realize my kids look scared when I am screaming.
I've been a slacker blogger and commenter lately.
Christmas....I am not even thinking about it. too many other pressing things.....8th birthday coming up, Thanksgiving, a baptism....hubby really has this misguided request that I get all the gift shopping done before Thanksgiving....his idea, but I'm supposed to follow-through. Huh? I think I need to explain things to him...if he wants it done, he better do it! :)
Scouting. Don't have one yet. We'll see how it goes. I can't get my YW to do her personal progress goals, so I think merit badges may fall into that same un-done category. A few years ago the asked me to be a den mother...I had a 5 wk old newborn, a 2 1/2 yr old, and a 4 year old. And no scout age kid. I almost asked them what they were smoking. Instead, I told them to rethink that in about 6 years when I have a kid in scouts.
Failure as a mother? When I lose my temper with my kids. Makes us all feel like crap. Lately? The fact that I should have a bday party planned for my almost 8 year old, and I have nothing.
Sonic has the crappiest customer service ever. My husband refuses to go there. And he is a pretty easy going husband. Unless you ask him to go to Sonic. He has had really bad experiences there. I always chack my order before pulling all the way out of the drive thru. And once, in Payson, I made the Taco Bell guy get in his car and bring me my order. He was nice. They won't do that here....
i am the worst scouting parent ever..last week i was talking to suzanne about scouts and where and when it was and i still forgot out it. no scout or rama for us today either and really cooper is sick and he shouldn't be around people, but that hasn't stopped me from sending him out the house for other things. oh well.
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