you may call it being an apple-polisher, but i call it self awareness.

a few things I've learned this week ....more of crazymama's self analysis back to school edition.

I'm sorry I know it's been all school, all week. but it's in the forefront, so bear with me until i find something more exciting to blog about.

Onto my self analysis....

~ i sit in the front of every class. and feel like a brownnoser the whole time.

~ I feel compelled to revert to my old ways and sit in the back. but I know I'd piddle around and not pay attention so i sit in front. (like an @$$ KISSER!)

~ I'm an active listener. I nod , make eye contact. smile at the teachers lame A jokes. (teachers pet wannabe ) this makes the teacher use me as an example over and over.

~ i sit up front but don't want to participate. AT ALL! hello! that's why I'm comfortable as a back of the room kinda gal. but i have to focus and in order to focus i have to sit front and center. I'm not a suck up! i just know my limitations. you are loving the self awareness here right? Gotta love Adult ADHD.

~ i take notes in 3 colors/types of pen . black fine line marker , fuchsia fine line marker, and depending on the class, pencil or black ball point pen.

~ in between points made during the blah blah blah blathering of the teacher, i doodle in the margins. checkerboards, hearts, stars, and geometric shapes. I've noticed he sees me start to doodle and moves on. hallelujah.

~other people count the # of uh's or um's said by the teacher lecturing (like my new friend). 70 uh's or um's in an 18 minute time frame is a tad much. i didn't notice, i was doodling. but it describes how fabulously this teacher lectures. you are jealous right?

~ I've learned that an hour and 15 minute class feels like an eternity. why can't it fly by like time wasted on bejeweled? Facebook or reading blogs? huh? WHY NOT?!

~ I've learned i wanna get to it. no easing in. give me the goods. can we pick up the pace here? yeah. so maybe I'm an overachiever. i think I've found my research paper topic and i wanna get to it. NOW!

my topic? of course you want to know right?

" The effects of social media on cancer awareness and subsequent increase in diagnosis."

what do you think?

sounds interesting right? i think so .

we'll see what my teacher thinks. he has to approve my topic.

so yeah. i wanna get cracking on that.

it's kinda pathetic that I'm so into it, but I've seen a rise in awareness just from my own little bloggity blog . I'm sure there is interesting research out there to back me up.

some people wanna be baby nurses. some wanna be ER nurses. i think i'm leaning towards nursing people with cancer . or maybe not. there's lots of time to think about it.

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