it's a new day.

This morning, I witnessed a beautiful sunrise that began as a subtle glow illuminating the Superstition mountains. none of the stresses and worries from last night were with me,
in that moment, it was a new day.

Sometimes you go to bed with the days burdens and worries weighing you down.

rejection, heartaches, dread , worry, they are bedfellows to many.

the new day has promise. a fresh start . a clean slate. a certain hope.

what do you hope for with the new day?

Fabulousness? greatness? wonder? delight? peace? answers? Friendship?

do you let go the previous hurt and struggle? or do you cling to it letting it weigh you down?




I've had times in my life where it was a daily slog , days or weeks even months spent mired deep in my worries or illness. looking back at those times nothing stands out, it all blurs together and big things get lost in the memories of those dark times.


in contrast I've had days that are nothing short of spectacular.

sometimes the things that make up a truly spectacular day aren't the actual happenings or the places i went, it's the attitude I had throughout the day. sure i said days not weeks or months of spectacular delights. I have to take it one day at a time.



i started out my new day dropping the hubs off at the airport, he'll be gone for a week turning over his job. training his replacements. yeah it will take 4 people to do his one job. AWESOME.

i could have spent the drive home worried about his job that ends at the end of the year. or worried about my week as a single mom. or worried about my tests next week and the unknown delights that await me.

(it's not the tests but the results that scare me, once you've felt the fear, it comes rushing back even though you can rationally assume it's all going to be no big deal. that is the niggling little tidbit of fear that HOLY CRAP my cancer is back and it might have spread somewhere that could actually kill me.

any test triggers this response. for pretty much all cancer survivors. because at one point they assumed it was going to be fine. it was not any big deal, nothing was really wrong. but one time there really was something wrong. it's never the same again.)

instead I enjoyed the sunrise, and picked up doughnuts for breakfast.

I'm choosing to make the best of today.


how about you?

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