It all adds up

all summer long i kept counting the kids and thinking , someone is missing.

where is that other one? and i'd count again and they were all there. just 6.

i chalked it up to how easy they were getting to take places, no baby to carry. everyone walking, nicely on their own. Pierce was potty trained, no diapers.

and now. I get to start over.

one last baby to savor. #7

yeah. so. rad secret huh?

people had begun to suspect on FB from my chronic cravings and almost peeing my pants semi regularly.

I was waiting until I'd been to the Dr. and it was confirmed official , even though it was killing me, I soooo can't keep a secret.

then once it was confirmed, I was not quite ready to announce it , but I went Friday and saw the heartbeat so I guess that's official enough.

that and I FB statused that I was rocking a prego belly at the Neon Trees concert tonight. yeah I guess I got slightly more prego looking as the night wore on. stellar.

someone wanted more details so here you go. MORE. lots more.

I've been exhausted. the hubs came back from New Zealand and KNEW I was prego days before I even suspected.

somehow he sees the signs well before I put it all together. and then he waits until I clue in. smirking to himself that I have no clue.

apparently....

-napping every afternoon.

-almost peeing my pants multiple times a day.

-random cravings like filibertos nightly and ice cream even though i'm normally lactose intolerant.

-sudden/chronic yeast infections.

-breaking out with acne.

-random unexplained nausea. that I blame on the flu but it just comes and goes.

yeah. these things each alone don't indicate anything. but all together the hubs sees a pattern that we've gone through before. and it all adds up.

eventually I notice my period is late, and I think i'll trigger it by taking a pregnancy test. of course it happens on a month I think there is absolutely NO WAY I could be pregnant.

HA, it was positive.

SURPRISE.

so I went in. had my first pap smear in 4 years. and found out I'm due middle of March. and I'll be rocking the scheduled C-section this time. SWEET!

so now I'm not taking classes spring semester (thinking ahead for my recovery time from the c-section, sigh) and worried now I'll puke from the grody factor in lab this semester in anatomy and physiology. Which should be stellar.

The kids are super stoked. they were holding out hope for boy/girl twins but it's just one. so this one is the tie breaker.

now that I'm in the midst of this I have to remind myself, I WANTED THIS.

I wanted this? yeah, I did for a long while. For years I'd begged, cried and bargained, but finally I'd resigned myself to never having anymore babies and whalah, SURPRISE.

so now every time I wanna whine about being puketastic or tired, I tell myself ,

"I WANTED THIS."

it will have to be my mantra.

and no matter what I've said before about having more,

I'm pretty sure this is it. 7 .

just 7.

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