I struggle a little.

Today I cried while washing the dishes.

I don't know if it was because I was tired after Patriot woke up at 4:30 am, climbed out of his crib and pounded on his door crying and refused to go back to sleep.

Or it was doing the giant pile of dishes that seem to have been waiting for me forever. the dishes have been done but the baking sheets and brownie pans seem to have been waiting for me for weeks. I'm finally back to regular chores and catching up from the last couple months.

Or maybe while I was just looking out the window and washing dishes I had a minute to think about the last few weeks. or more like the last few months....they sucked. Thinking about why they sucked probably brought it on.

 I cried when I told the hubs it was a waste of a summer. I had been sick all summer long, it ruined our weekly swim playdates, we did nothing fun, I started out the summer planning on getting organized and purging and instead I barely functioned and then, on the first day of school I found out it was for nothing? seriously? that sucks. (in case you missed that post you can read about it here, here and here)

Most days I do fine. but sometimes when I think about it too much I struggle a little.
So today, while I washed dishes, I cried.

Then Patriot did something cute and I laughed and moved on.

I don't have time to wallow for long.

I went on a really fun vacation over labor day weekend and on September 11th we went to do something I've been wanting to do for years. get ready for picture overload.

Mamarazzi and I are on a little blog break with the "We want to know Wednesday" link party. I'm hoping I'll get my blogging mojo back.

Stay tuned, the fun posts are coming and I might even catch up on my birthday weekend post and some other stuff I haven't blogged about but keep meaning to.


besides, who wouldn't cry when faced with a mountain of dishes?





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